I feel that i have lack in giving attention to US.

The weird thing, we are together basically everyday. Busy with unforseen issues and therefore being together is as good as being apart. Don't get what i'm trying to say?

Physically, we are together but our mind are occupied in other things till we forget our time together.

Anyway time is not on our side, PhatBoi been sick and me starting at my new work and starting my new module is really taking up alot of our quality time together.

He works permanent nite shift and i work office hours so our time are limited but we are still cool about it.

That's why i'm loving my PhatBoi.

Tym passes so fast but yet the day passes so slow...

Only now it's coming to end of march...

My mood swing worsens as days goes by...Irritated with the slightest mistake made.

Juz don't mess with me for the next few days...

Work's great....

PhatBoi been really really sick...

and Me, i'm in an aweful mood...

For the past few days i've been wondering to myself where should i go for a worthwhile trip...A place where there's tonnes of historical facts, sceneries and unique culture...

I would want to set foot in Switzerland, Italy, Holland, Egypt, Vietnam, Cambodia, Turkey, Japan and etc...etc...which is currently not in my mind..!!!

All these places are interesting but my wishes are hard to be granted with alot of settlement to be done, i can foresee that it will take a looooonnnnnnggg while *sighs*

Juz have to be patient rite now and aim for my goal but first things first.

The true fact is, i dun really fancy cakes and would avoid it almost all the time...

You Are a Marble Cake

Eclectic, inventive, and peaceful. You are never willing to accept what's "normal." You live to push the envelope. You find it hard to make up your mind. You prefer to have everything you want, right away!

Least that i expected, it's already friday.

The week has been so hectic. Running around to get things done.

It has been ages since i've cooked and for two days now, i've been doing the cooking since mommy away being treated somewhere.

My date with PhatBoi to watch Laila Isabella is not fulfilled yet. It was suppose to be done last weekend but due to the busy schedule, i zonk out each time i lay myself on the bed...poor PhatBoi...

It's confirmed that i have put on weight and i am soooooo determine to put off those kilos before the event....so whoever wants or wishes to join me, YOU ARE MOST WELCOME!!!!

That's it...i have had enuf...!!!!

Saying goodbye to the political world and moving on to a world full of GASES....

I have also gave up thinking for others and the reason is pretty simple...What's the point thinking for them when they themselves do not bother about it...so conclusion, Don't Bother to Stress Myself up over things, which in the first place is not my problem to solve, and let the person itself bother about their OWN PROBLEMS....

Till 26 March arrives, i'm suppose to rest my mind, body and soul only...

Mommy left me home....and now Mommy's BACK!!!!

You can never imagine how much i missed her...

Let me tell you what SUX!!!!

1) Family Politic SUX!!!
- some people made my mom cried yesterday and i'm NOT EVEN with this bunch of idiots yet (i don't give a damn to anyone rite now...be it siblings or relatives).

2) Office Politic SUX!!!!!
- this people bitch about each other practically everyday and getting me involve eventhough i've given hints that i'm NOT interested!!! Really getting SICK of this place...AND im staying, only for the sake of PhatBoi, Plans and H, if not, i would have dump this MORONS!!! Bunch of HYPOCRITES that bitch behind your back and pretend to show concerns but in actual fact, trying to get scoops out of you...DAMN YOU HYPOS!!!

I'm reaching a point where i'm gonna blow my top and when that happen, better not mess with me.

Now, let me tell you what DON'T SUX....

1) PhatBoi
- He has been a wonderful Future B...quietly listening to my rants about everything, everyday and he has been very supportive to whateva i have planned or about to plan. Not forgetting trying to fulfil my wishes...

2) Frens
- These are the people that occupies my time and take my mind away from problems. We basically talk and joke over banal stuffs without getting sick of it. They fill up my life with happiness in their own special way...

And not forgetting...

3) MY FAMILY!!!!
- They are my most precious people in my life...especially my MOM & DAD...eventhough sometimes my mom's syair irritates me but i'm still loving her...eventhough my dad's jokes are actually lame, i'm still loving him. My Brothers, ya...they are important to me too...24-7 annoys me with stupid actions but i feel the loneliness when they are not around..*sobs* I'm missing HIS presence in the house...seriously, i do. Now, my whole family going for a holiday tomorrow, for 4 days, i'm already missing them...with my Bro's missing in action for a while, i feel the lost...

Lastly, it sucks when we did some reality check, Budi is leaving for Jkt tomorrow and this time, for GOOD!!! Today's lunch was the last one we will be having for a period of time till he decides to pop by again which god knows when...

AND WE ARE OREDI MISSING HIM!!!!!!! *sobs*

Dinner @ Thai Express was great. My gf commented on my Eye Bag...*sigh* The whole process is tiring me down and giving me sleeping disorder.

Remember i mentioned that i'm all puffed up? Well, the sleeping disorder is one of the reason to me having too much water retention...*sobs*

My skin is deteriorating...i'm not sure why. It has been like this since i came back from Thailand. Zits popping out like nobody business, wait...to be exact, its not zits, its acne...*sobs*

Im not sure what or where to turn to or where or how to start...so someone please give me a solution!!!!! *sobs*

Happy 30th Anniversary to B&B group....I didnt know that they actually existed since 1977...wow!!! what a period...

Eventhough i'm here only as a temp staff but i'm sharing the joy...

Here's how the founder look like during the initial start of this company...retro but kinda cute though...fancy him for sending a mass email to all offices of B&B with an attach photo of them at that point of time...

I realise that my weight is within my normal range but then my whole body including my face is puffing up...!!!!

Water retention....!!!!!!!!!! I feel so bloated..all puffed and im not liking it.

Tym to sweat it out but the problem is, i duno where the hell is my workout shoes.

Am i really motivated to do it?? Each tym i meet PhatBoi, we will turn to FOOD!!!

Im not liking what i am putting on...really i dun...*sobs*

"Never Judge A Book By Its Cover"

From this moment, I'll remember this phrase forever.

Too much politic here.

The bad is not entirely bad...wherelse the good is actually bad.

None can be trusted and i rather be on my own thinking of me, myself and only I.

Last nite, PhatBoi was my listening ears. Quietly, he listen attentively to my rants.

I trashed out what i've kept.

So lesson learnt and point noted.

We had it all settled yesterday. Now, we are waiting for the piece of paper to reach us and the rest of the steps can be put into practice.

Alot of negative feedbacks were given to us about our decisions but we ain't paying attention to it, coz we are both happy with IT and looking forward to IT.

It's not that we are ignorant but i guess it's about time that we start to be independent and make our own decisions. Whatever the outcome is, be it good or be it bad, we are the one who is gonna face it and we are the one who will have to endure and go thru it.

Today, we having dinner with my Twin and her family.

Miracles happen, and this is one of it.

We have to forgo the first option due to some issues which will burden us at a later stage and we have chosen option two but the problem is, my parents dont seem to be supportive of it.

Anyway, its our happiness and its us who will have to endure. We have no issues and so option two is still our choice.

Im happy that we've achieved it and almost all criteria met. Satisfied. We are now waiting for everything to be finalised.

Too much of Family Politic is draining me out...

Yes, im hearing you but Sorry, im not getting myself involve...

Family Politic sucks...especially wen money is involve...

Good things are happening lately...

See...if we are sincere and have faith in wat we intend to do and not forgetting, to instill great patience, HE will side us and provide us the happiness we are trying to achieve.

Look at how HE is making things fall into places...*smiles*

Miracle happens and it is up to us to believe or not.

With all this, alot of obstacles will befall upon us, testing us on our endurance, faith, sincererity and patience...We pull thru, Success is ours!!!!

HE is fair...HE wont test us if we can't make it...

Life is indeed like a roller coaster...that's mine and yours...

Im missing my Twin and the Babies...

P/S: Gal, call me wen you read this.

My breakout is clearing..*smiles*

PhatBoi and I have got most of our stuffs...now we are patiently waiting... *winks*

I've come to term with the fact that i've put on kgs...

Yes people, I've put on the kgs...

Tell you what have become of me....

I've put on kgs
Im having my breakouts
My hair in a mess

The facts are torturing me...if ur asking, what have happen to me?? I myself couldn't answer that...*sighs*

Yesterday, he upsets me *sobs*

Then history starts flashing in my mind and i couldn't sleep...

But he made it all well by getting me my "BUTTERFLY" *smiles*

Read his 10 reasons and im all smiles again...

Im loving PhatBoi endlessly...seriously, no words can ever describe the feelings...*smiles*

Finally its over....

The nite was tiring but worth it. All our efforts have not gone to waste and greatly appreciated. For once i felt 2 hours was like 200hours...

As per normal there are some hiccups but all went well. As usual too, i wonder why SM exist or why on earth we even bother to get SM involve.

PL and my hardwork paid off...Yeay!!! Congrats to us.

Now all is done, i need to recuperate...i need my beauty sleep....i need my rest...Its time to hibernate...