Yesterday, for the 1st time i let out my feelings which i have been keeping all this while.

The more i let it out, the more tears rolled down my cheeks. Well, i believe its about time coz i cant take it anymore.

Its not that i didnt try but i did. All i asked for is a lytle for me. Doing nothing else but juz me.

One good example was 'that' nite. I appreciate it sssooooooooo much. I love it ssssssoooooooo much that i didnt want it to end.

All i need is something like that..juz once a week and i'll be more than contented and i wont feel this way and wont bother you or trouble you.

Tym...we have all the tym in the world but it meant nothing if we cant have something lyk 'that' nite...its meaningless if we cant accomodate to dat....

We are all busy with our own things and commitments but we CANNOT forget 'that' coz 'that' heals everything and makes us forget all our worries...

If im asking for too much, im sorry....but 'that' is all i asked from you....

Im in a dilemma now....

Its about my hair....should i cut it now or cut it after the "THING" is over?

No matter what, i am gonna cut my hair but the problem is, i dont know when is the right time...

Anyway...PhatBoi rocks my world... *winks*

And before i forgets, It's Daddy's Birthday today!!!!!!!! Happy Birthday my beloved Dad cum Boyfriend cum Sugar Daddy cum etc...etc....etc...*laughs*

Selamat Mentuakan Diri yang ke .... Tahun!!!!

Look at him...awwwww so sound asleep...ahakz...*smiles*

*ps: sorry dear....love you tonnes...*winks*

It has been a rock and roll week so far...

I had a weird encounter, i pissed and worried my Twin off and i had an unexpected surprise from PhatBoi....

Work is great so far...too early to predict anyway but i hope this is the last.

Busy with preparations for now...scouting around for the necessary things... and i believe with all these things going on, i've neglected some of my frens especially my twin till i disappoints her...Im sorry babe....

I've put on tonnes of KGs...im goin out of shape....!!!!!!!!!! Decided to start my daily routine again..lets see how it goes then...

I've not thanked PhatBoi enuf for the surprise and i'm loving it...really i do but the sad part is, it cant make up for the things that have happened...but its okay, ur forgiven for now but not forgotten...*winks*

I've learnt my lesson and never to repeat it again...

Things are picking up now. I'm leading my life as per normal now with less worries. I made a promise with HIM if i secure myself with a promising job, i'll do some stuffs and so after this one month, i'll carry out what i've promised to do.

It seems to be promising but god noes what to expect.

I really hope this will be the last till eternity. I hope...

Things have been bad for the past few days. I've been crying so bad and been hurt so bad.

Me and PhatBoi had a bad time with each other and i almost strike everything off...

Things are getting better now but for how long, i wouldnt know. God is testing me but please, i dont want to go thru the past path again....please spare me all that.

I pray hard that PhatBoi will change for good. I hope he learn from this lesson and never to do it again. Never misjudge me...trust me and believe me. Don't take those risk...please think before you act.

I hope this time round, words and action tallies...

I know i have been bad...i know i have hurt you by my reactions and words but the way i got hurt is much worst than wat i've done and its not fair....

I really love listening to the reasons you gave. For once i felt since wen i have fallen into the category of stupidity again...

What an ass i've been again...ya you can and i cant...WAT THE FUCK WAS DAT???

Yes i'm not gonna say anything or neither do i want to know anything else from you. You can do wateva you want and you can say wateva crap you want coz your reasons explains everything.

Maybe, i wasnt the one...

Wat a stupidity....

It has been such a bad beginning for the year...

Im depressed by the situation. Very bad start for a very bad year...

Its 2007 and its suppose to be a good year...now the future look so vague.

Im totally entirely hopelessly sad and feeling unmotivated.

PhatBoi been bad. Luck been bad. Everything seem bad. Even today, i had a bad start and it didnt get any better. It just got worst with every step and every breathe i took.

Will it be only for the beginning or the whole entire year?? Oh god...please dont let it be the whole year.

I don't want to disappoint anyone and i want it to be a better year for me...*sobs*

I having prob with my internet....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cant log in to my msn....i need help!!!!!!!!!!!

SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Not forgetting the pose....