It has been two years but things are still unsettled. It felt like it was only yesterday when everything started.

Somehow or rather, i guess the end are lingering around the corner of our lives....One fine day later, there will be no more of US. It will juz be a history in our lives and we move on without remembering that we ever cross each other paths. It could be the best for all parties.

Let me share something about what it feels like following what you believes....

I have alot of flaws in guys which i would and could never accept but with someone, i dont even remember i hated dos flaws...I became very patient knowing the fact im much younger. It took me time to change and tried my very hard to change. At times, he juz give up on me but then he was always there to give me courage to not give up. When things dont work out its not anybody fault coz we got our ownselves to blame. I simply dont noe how to give up...i always believe dat it will happen...i have faith eventhough its actually hurting...this man taught me the meaning of life. He too taught me to love and sacrifice. He was a man whom i love so dearly...At times he make me confuse but still i love him....he always make me laugh and he also hurt me alot but yet i still love him..Well i guess i hurt him too coz i've done shits too at times...He is the best guy and also the worst guy...so am i...im his worst nitemare as he claimed but he loves me alot and i love him alot too....its a pity dat things wont and dont work out...its hard for both of us...extremely i would say but i guess thats the best for both of us....*sobs*

Things change nowadays. I appreciate the moment i have with him...every single bit of it. He may turn out to hate me alot one day or he may miss me alot one day. Time will tell. This could be my last chance celebrating his b'day with him...i want it to be the most memorable b'day. I hope my wish comes true.

Im gonna take a break from blogging...im sure gonna miss everything...