No, i Juz CaNt....
26th June 2004, Saturday

It was a fantabulous Drum and Bass gig. A different lined up today, it was juz marvellous. The party-goers were damn supporting. They rawks the house down!!! Wait the pictures folks!! *YAWN*..tym for bed..


27th June 2004, Sunday

It was tym to rise and shine..but i juz wouldnt want to budge from my bed, I dont wanna open my eyes. I dont want to face another day..a day which will be full of confusion and uncertainties..my mind is so perturbed. I dont have the answers to my questions. All i do was think, think and think the things over. I cant run from reality..okay Wid, Juz wake up...

28th June 2004, Monday

Im still awake..my eyes wouldnt shut, my mind wouldnt stop thinking. I keep tossing and turning in bed while my tears roll out from my closed eyes..Wats so bothering??

All i wanna do was to make people happy. Im implementing things which i hope others will be happy. This will hurt but who cares rite?? I dont care...!! So what if im not happy?? People dont care, people dont love me sincerely..dey dont!! Dey are so pretentious..hypocrite world i may say..I dont want to be like dem, I wan to be the way i am..i dont want to change the fact dat i care...i love..i cherish but den people still get it wrong. Wateva i do, it was neva good enuf..wateva i do..i will neva succeed..nothing was ever positive about me, it was always the negative signs..nothing about me can be complimented. None at all...no praises, all was juz comments, complains..*snif*

I failed..im not a good person..no matter how hard i tried, i will neva be as good as dey wan be to be..i can neva meet deir standards. I'll neva be wateva dey wan me to be..i dont even remember who i am anymore...i've lost!!! Major lost!!

Shld i give up?? Shld i hold on?? Im so confused...i juz wanna make people happy but i failed. My love will neva fade but people's love will...either way i still lose out..

Sorry people..i've tried my very best but i will neva be good enuf..im juz a bad person..a person who dont deserve anything...

I wanna run away..far far away from dis life of mine...im tired..very tired...im sad dat i have lost.. *snif*